This is going to be a little bit of a rant. So be warned. And before I start I am in no way belittling what our soldiers do over seas, especially those one the front lines. I am sure that they have it way harder then I will ever know. However, in the case of my husband and many other soldiers like him, its seems almost like a vacation. They are free from the normal everyday responsibilities such as taking care of screaming kids and work their 8 hour shift and then that's it for the rest of the day. Other then battling boredom, life for them seems to me to be pretty simplistic. And as I have said before, I would much rather my husband be shopping the the PX or playing all day long on the computer then actually in harms way. That's not really what I have a problem with.
My problem is that it must be so much fun or something that he doesn't seem to miss me or the family much. Maybe I am misinterpreting whats really going on. But I get to talk to him 20 minutes each day usually and he doesn't have much to say that is meaningful. Its mostly about bills or whatever. I just don't get that feeling like he misses being with me. I keep wanting to hear him say something loving or that he misses me but it doesn't happen. Maybe its just because he has buddies around. I'm not sure. Also his computer has been down for 2 days so I know that's part of why I haven't been hearing from him much. But at the same time when he was in Kuwait and he didn't have the Internet he was at the USO every chance he got to stand in line to call me or use the computer to talk. I know its probably a pain the butt to go over there and spend your day doing that, however, I should would appreciate it. I am still in the mourning stage. I haven't moved on yet. Maybe he has moved on already, maybe not, I don't know. But I definitely feel that I miss him more then he misses me.
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