This morning Ron didn't get online again. Well, right away anyway. I had waited for the past 2 days online for Ron to get on. His computer was broken, so I give him that. But yesterday he had bought a new one and had some excuse as to why he couldn't be online. So today I am online again at 8am.. which is 5pm his time. And is the time that HE told ME to be online at. So I am there waiting again for 3 day in a row and he doesn't get online at 8. So after about 45 minutes I flipped and offline messaged him saying that if he cant make time for me then I'm not about to make time for him. Well, he does eventually get on at 9. So technically he is only an hour late. But I was still upset and he didn't understand why I was so upset over just on hour. But for me it was more then that. For me it was that he hadn't found a way to make time for me the last 2 days and then again today I was not a priority in his life. He told me that he didn't want to deal with my bullshit anymore and that he was starting not to like something about me. And for a minute I thought I was losing my best friend right that minute. I honestly thought that after just two weeks of deployment he was going to call off our whole marriage.
But then he told me that it he hasn't been sleeping much because he works the graveyard shift and then after that when he should be going to bed, his friends need battle buddies to go to the PX with. So he is only getting about 2 hours of sleep before he has to be online to talk to me.
After we kinda said sorry to each other. Then I just told him that his problem is with his friends, not with me. And that I think it is only fair that he makes time to at least talk to me one hour a day.
We will see what comes of this. It is my biggest fear that this deployment completely destroys our marriage. It only can go two ways. It will either kill your relationship or make it stronger. I am hoping ours is the second one but I guess only time will tell.
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