After last nights fight, I thought for sure Ron would make it online today. But no such luck. I didn't get a phone call from him last night either (which I can probably understand since it is from his work phone). I'm not sure why he is not one today. I am guessing he is sleeping. I know that a soldier died over there yesterday or today (I'm not sure because of the time difference). I'm sure its not him right, because they would have come over here and notified me. Or at least that's what happens in the movies.
Well I defiantly feel alone and forgotten today. I hope to hear from him soon. I'm not sure what to do. Everyone says I need to be more supportive and that he is just really busy. Whatever, I don't know and feel like giving up at this point. I guess I just have to grow hard, like all the other women who have survived multiple deployments. It was very odd to see a whole auditorium of women who's spouse were about ready to deploy and not see any anguish or tears in their face. I guess I understand why now. You grow bitter and cold after having to do everything by yourself and also be forgotten. I can understand now why that woman left her husband at the airport following a 7 month deployment. I never in a thousand years thought I would be able to understand that. But as the minutes and hours tick on with out a word from my husband, i realize I am not that important to him. And if its not that God help me figure out the real reason so that our marriage is not completely destroyed by this deployment.
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